Carmen Burnet lived with a secret for much of her childhood, a secret that would one day tear her family apart.
Monday, March 3, 2014 - 19:30

Ms Burnet was the youngest of five children and grew up in a broken home after her dad left when she was two. Her oldest brother took over as father figure in the household and soon after the abuse started.

"I think it was when I was seven… that I knew that things weren’t right," says Ms Burnet. "He started doing things that were much more aggressive and also more disgusting… definitely, from that time I knew that this part of our relationship, there was something badly wrong with it."

"He seemed to get off on having power over me and that seemed to turn him on – to have me at his mercy."

At 38 years of age Ms Burnet is still coming to terms with the pain of a being harmed by someone she loved.

"I kind of lived a double life where these things would happen and they’d be terrible and I’d feel terrible," says Ms Burnet. "I’d feel so ashamed and… I’d have to go back to normal childhood life: go to school, go to choir… and I would just try not to think about it."

"It still makes me sad just to think about it now. I was so shattered."

Carmen Burnett shared her story with The Feed's Joel Tozer in the hope that other victims will feel empowered to come forward. You can see her story tonight on The Feed - 19:30 on SBS 2. You can follow The Feed on Facebook and Twitter.