In a new interview with Out Magazine, actor-turned-YouTuber-turned-singer Troye Sivan discusses his relationship with the "beautiful boyfriend" he thanked in the liner notes for his album Blue Neighbourhood.
Without revealing the name of said boyfriend, Troye says that “it was important... to pay tribute to that person and thank that person".
"They were super instrumental to the process of making the album," he shared. "I don’t think I could’ve done it without them. As far as defining that relationship and defining who that person is and everything...” he trails off.
Of his decision to not reveal his boyfriend's identity (many have speculated that it is the equally famous YouTuber Connor Franta), Sivan says that with his whole life being in the public eye, it's nice to keep something private.
“I feel like I share everything about myself, like everything," he says. "That’s the one thing—I should keep something to myself.”
After joining YouTube at age 12, Sivan came out to his parents at age 15, and three years later, to his fans on YouTube. #WeAreProudOfYouTroye trended worldwide on Twitter.
“This is not something that I’m ashamed of,” he said, “and it’s not something that anyone should have to be ashamed of.”
Sivan was raised Jewish but tells Out that he's "not super-religious". Still, he discusses the impact that his religion had on him in relation to his coming out, and how that became the song "Heaven".
“Writing that song was very therapeutic to me at the time,” he says. “It was me thinking about how hard I try to be a good person and then feeling like, before I even opened my eyes as a little baby—because I think I was born gay—I was a sinner. All of those are very standard, but very confusing and hurtful conversations that you have to have with yourself as an LGBTQ person.”
This song has turned into a powerful anthem that connects Sivan to his fans at concerts. He recalls a concert where he asked the crowd “Who’s LGBTQ up in here?” and saw half the audience raise their hands, saying that he "couldn't believe how loud it got" as he reached the line “if I’m losing a piece of me, maybe I don’t want heaven.”
Describing the moment, he said: “That moment where you take on that responsibility and feel that empowerment, seeing that in a physical form looking back at me, singing those lyrics back at me was...” he trails off. "It was life-changing."