The hardest thing about deciding not to have children

"When it came time to try for a baby, something in me baulked. I knew that it was normal to experience a degree of anxiety when confronted with major life changes, but this felt different."

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For many years, I couldn’t make up my mind. Should I be a mother? Did I actually want children? Would I in fact be happier without them?

I met my husband when I was 29, and always assumed we would start a family because that is what you did. But as my 30s wore on, my unquestioning certainty turned to suffocating indecision, as I vacillated between ‘OK, let’s do this’ and ‘Good God, no.’

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