Apink's Eunji had a great 2016, with the release of her first album "Dream" and her popular solo single "Hopefully Sky," but even she isn't immune to some dark times.
In a new interview with Ceci Magazine, Eunji revealed that despite all the success she had last year as a solo artist and with Apink, she suffered from depression throughout 2016:
"As I work more, I seem to realise my other side. And I had a very depressing year last year. I felt empty and lacking, even with winning no1 in chats with my first solo 'Hopefully Sky'. and I was the one who always believed that hard work pays off."
Upon elaborating what was going on, Eunji revealed that she struggled to find motivation in meeting people, even old friends:
"I thought I had a very strong power of positiveness, but I just didn't wanted to meet anyone new, and even run away when I see someone, since I couldn't control my feelings last year. And I always liked meeting new people while drinking a bit. But then again, if I stayed alone, sad thoughts came into me, and that's when I first realised my other side.
When asked how she was coping with her depression, Eunji says that it was a struggle to overcome her dark thoughts and being creative wasn't an effective outlet in helping her cope with her condition:
"Well I tried very hard to overcome. I tend to dig deep when I'm into something. And I really couldn't find the end when I tried to dig deep into the emotion of 'depressing'.
It really, really didn't help me at all. I even had times where I wrote lyrics with the feelings and ideas I had, and was surprised by it. For me, it feels like thinking about being depressing and writing about it really kills me."
Despite all those dark times in 2016, Eunji says that she is doing much better now, especially after getting her own studio:
"It did get a lot better after I got my own studio. I learned how to compose from composer oppas, and started to learn piano again - and I think I became more tough - maybe more brave."
We're just glad that you're okay, Eunji, and we hope you will keep fighting it!
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