The mother of the model shot dead by Oscar Pistorius has revealed she suffers from nightmares about her final moments.
In an emotional interview on Wednesday, June Steenkamp spoke of her anguish at seeing images in court of the athlete covered in her daughter Reeva's blood after he killed her.
She said she did not believe Pistorius loved Miss Steenkamp, 29, claiming he saw her as a "trophy".
Pistorius, 27, was found guilty of culpable homicide last month and jailed for five years but he could be out of prison in 10 months.
Mrs Steenkamp told BBC Radio 5 Live the thought of her daughter's last moments in a toilet cubicle in Pistorius's luxury home on Valentine's Day last year is "still there".
She said: "We have nightmares about it all the time. That has been the hardest part to get through - that she would have been expecting God to come and save her and where are we?
"We couldn't do anything to help her and now he comes along and does this dreadful, dreadful, horrible crime. It's just too much for us to even think about what she was going through in that bathroom.
"She had no escape."
She recalled the moment she learned of her daughter's death from a detective.
"He said 'there has been an accident, she's been shot'. I said 'you better tell me if she's dead or alive' and he said 'I'm very sorry, she's passed away'.
"I was shocked. I couldn't believe it."
She said the couple had been arguing "all the time" which she thought was unusual for a new relationship.
"That was a slight warning but I didn't know. She kind of hid it from us in the beginning."
She said they shared a "very close" relationship and the death had left her and husband Barry "devastated".
"Nothing except her being here will help," Mrs Steenkamp said. "I feel very angry when I think what he did to her - a wonderful person - and just shot her like that.
"Something went wrong - we will never know unless he (Pistorius) decides to talk about it."
She said she had forgiven Pistorius, but added: "He has taken everything from us. She will never have our grandchildren. She will never have a wedding. She will never have a career.
"Why her? Why didn't he just let her go?"
She expressed doubt that the couple, who began dating in around November 2012, had been physically intimate.
"I just felt that I don't think so...I don't know. I don't understand their relationship at all."
Asked if she thought Pistorius loved her daughter, she said: "No I think she was just a trophy."
Mrs Steenkamp has written a book about her ordeal, titled Reeva: A Mother's Story.
