Former Welsh rugby star Gareth Thomas has revealed he is HIV positive.
Thomas, who came out as gay in 2009, is thought to be the first UK sportsman to go public about living with the virus, and has revealed that he was driven to suicidal thoughts as a result of his diagnosis.
He went public with his illness after being put "through hell" by blackmailers who threatened to expose his secret.
The 45-year-old told the Sunday Mirror: "I've been living with this secret for years.
Gareth Thomas addresses the media after he signed for the Celtic Crusaders. Source: Press Association
"I've felt shame and keeping such a big secret has taken its toll."
"I was in a dark place, feeling suicidal. I thought about driving off a cliff.
"To me, wanting to die was just a natural thought and felt like the easier way out, but you have to confront things."
The former British and Irish Lions captain, who will be a TV pundit in the upcoming Rugby World Cup in Japan, said he "broke down" when he got the news of his diagnosis.
"I went for a routine sexual health test at a private clinic in Cardiff.
"I didn't feel ill and thought everything was going to be fine.
"When (the doctor) said those words... I immediately thought I was going to die.
Gareth Thomas attends a photocall for the launch of Dancing on Ice 2013. Source: WireImage
"Then I was thinking 'how long have I got left?'"
"I've been threatened by people who said they would give away my secret. It's sick and I've been through hell.
"I was being blackmailed and in my mind I thought you only get blackmailed for something really bad, which compounded the feeling of shame."
The former Cardiff Blues player won 103 caps and scored 41 tries for Wales between 1995 and 2007, and he is 13th on the all-time international test try-scoring list.
Last November, he was attacked in Cardiff city centre in a homophobic hate crime, but asked South Wales Police to deal with the 16-year-old assailant by way of restorative justice.
Gareth Thomas in action at Millennium Stadium in Cardiff, Wales. Source: Getty Images Europe
The sportsman now takes one tablet containing four medications each day, and doctors have said his condition is under control to the point that it is considered "undetectable" and cannot be passed on.
Thomas said that his husband Stephen, who he met after his diagnosis and married three years ago, does not have HIV.
Thomas said he hopes that his openness will help end the stigma around the condition.
Readers seeking support and information about suicide prevention can contact Lifeline on 13 11 14, Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467 and Kids Helpline on 1800 55 1800 (up to age 25).
