Esther said she struggles with the social pressures of the church and feels excluded. She said her faith is now "up in the air". Esther recently accompanied someone to a Narcotics Anonymous meeting and said she felt the presence of God there. On Keeping the Faith, Insight explores the costs and rewards of sticking with spirituality. Watch Tuesday, 11 October from 8:30pm on SBS On Demand.
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