Chris Cairns's desperate financial situation has been laid bare at his trial in London.
The former cricketing great is charged with perjury and perverting the course of justice in relation to a 2012 libel case in which he stated he didn't cheat at cricket.
Cairns is charged with lying when he stated that he "never, ever, cheated at cricket" during his 2012 libel case against former Indian Premier League chairman Lalit Modi.
At the Southwark Crown Court trial on Wednesday, the jury was played a recording of Cairns's interview last year with British police, in which he described the impact the allegations of match fixing had had on him.
"I can't pay my bills, I have rent backed up for two months," Cairns told police.
"This is what I think about in the mornings, why I can't have a living."
When asked by officers why former teammate Lou Vincent and Vincent's ex-wife had reported that Cairns was involved in match fixing, Cairns did not offer a specific reason.
"I'm not going to get into conspiracies, because people want to f*** me over."
A recording of an interview with Cairns's co-defendant, barrister Andrew Fitch-Holland, also revealed details about Cairns's finances.
Fitch-Holland told officers that Cairns had struggled to pay child support, to the point Fitch-Holland had questioned the cricketer about whether he should start another family with his new wife.
"Chris has struggled financially over the last few years," Fitch-Holland said.
With reference to the libel trial, Fitch-Holland agreed the money would have helped bail him out, but said what Cairns had really wanted was an apology.
The recording of Cairns's interview also covered the moment when police revealed that Brendon McCullum had reported Cairns's alleged match-fixing approach to him.
Black Caps captain McCullum has previously given evidence to the trial that Cairns asked him to become involved in fixing in India in 2008.
When confronted with that information in his police interview, Cairns appeared disbelieving, trailing off when he began to answer.
He told officers Brendon is misconstruing the discussion of match fixing, which Cairns said was probably around theories.
