Growing up gay and Aboriginal in a bi-racial family, Wesley Enoch struggled to understand who he was. But theatre helped him break a pattern of violence and find his voice. This is his story.
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Depending on how you look at it, Wesley Enoch either has one of the most enviable or most daunting jobs in the Australian arts industry.
As the director of Sydney Festival, each year he has to plan a three-week program of more than 80 arts events drawn from across the world that about 500,000 people attend throughout January.
But, speaking to SBS News, the 50-year-old playwright and director says he has got through far tougher times.
Enoch was born to a Noonuccal Nuugi father and a white mother on Queensland's Stradbroke Island (Minjerribah) before his family moved closer to Brisbane when he was a young boy.
Looking back, he says there was a "chain of violence" in his family passed down from father to son, and in his early years, it remained unbroken.
"I tried to express myself through violence," he says.
"The third time I was suspended from school was because I threw a table at a teacher. I had this angry reaction to what I kept thinking was injustice."
Enoch says 1970s Queensland was not a very accepting place for a bi-racial family.
He retells the story of how his family was not allowed to attend his sister's graduation. An excuse was made that the venue was full but his parents knew the real reason and made their thoughts known.
With hindsight, he says racism was a strangely complex thing for a young boy to process.
"I would be an apologist for racism at some points, thinking 'well they're only joking aren't they?' In my head, I was justifying it ... but in the end, I realised the jokes were just as damaging."
He found refuge in artistic pursuits, saying school plays gave him "a voice".
'A minority in a minority'
Enoch originally planned to be a teacher as he saw an important "community role" in the profession.
"I had some great teachers who helped me get through life, and I thought I would return the favour," he says.
But while studying a Bachelor of Arts in Drama, different lecturers prodded him to pursue a career in the creative industries, encouraging him to "test this out" or "go off and explore" that.
Mixing with fellow Aboriginal creatives including actors Deborah Mailman and Roxanne McDonald, Enoch started to write and direct theatre.
"And I never looked back," he says.
Around this time, Enoch also came out as gay.
"Being a minority in a minority is an interesting thing. Being on the edges of a community means that you see it clearly ... It gives you a heightened sensibility about understanding others," he says.
In his early 20s, he helped found Kooemba Jdarra Indigenous Performing Arts in Brisbane as a vehicle to tell Indigenous stories.
His CV then reads like a best-of list of Australian theatre: A stint as resident director at Sydney Theatre Company, associate artistic director at Sydney's Belvoir St Theatre, and artistic director at Queensland Theatre Company.
Add to that a Patrick White Playwrights' Award in 2005 and a directing gig for the Indigenous section of the 2006 Melbourne Commonwealth Games opening ceremony.
He then became the director of Sydney Festival in 2017, a post he will hold until 2021.
But Enoch is less interested in discussing where he's worked over the years, instead focusing on how he's worked.
"When I'm doing work, making a show or making a festival, I feel an obligation to community and family really keenly," he says.
So much so, one of Enoch's goals has been "how many Indigenous performers and stories can I get out there, so I can really accelerate those conversations".
At this year's Sydney Festival alone, around 20 pieces of theatre, music, dance and art are by First Nations writers, performers and artists.
Asked about his take on the broader arts industry he says, "I'm not a great believer in art for art's sake".
"Ultimately I do what I do because I want to connect to audiences ... Maybe this is a very Aboriginal perspective on life - we are storytellers of the clan, we are here to service the clan."
Enoch's partner David McAllister is also in the arts - he's the artistic director of the Australian Ballet and a former principal dancer with the company.
The pair met in 2008 at then-prime minister Kevin Rudd's Australia 2020 Summit, a convention to brainstorm big ideas about the nation's future.
"Often we have fantastic discussions about what does classical ballet mean to the world? I'm sometimes very dismissive of his work," Enoch says laughing.
"And vice versa, he tries to understand where I'm coming from and why I'm doing things."
A long way to go
Having worked in the arts for more than 25 years, Enoch says he's seen an evolution of Indigenous theatre.
He says when first starting out, the majority of Indigenous plays were biographical, whereas today, they are more likely to tackle bigger ideas and questions around Indigenous and non-Indigenous relations.
"There are a lot more acts of imaginative fiction."
He says Indigenous playwrights are "creating dramatic environments where stories can be told ... A much bigger space, a healing narrative for the nation".
But, he says, Indigenous artists still have a long way to go.
"We need to promote self-determination where there are opportunities for Indigenous artists to create stories, and back stories that are important to us. That's really important."
And more broadly, he laments that Australian artists are not more active in the national discourse.
"We're all a bit shamed or we're all a bit demoralised or driven to be silent," he says.
"Not just First Nations artists but broadly, where are the artistic leaders talking about the things that are important to us as a country?"
It's a role Enoch has been embracing for decades, and will likely keep doing well into the future.
Sydney Festival runs until 26 January.
Additional reporting by Janice Petersen
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